Well... I fell off the Wagon! HARD!!!!

It has been a while since a post and that is because I was ashamed of the fact that I have already fell off the wagon! I only did good one or two days then I had a MS flare up and then an arthritis flare up back to back and that sent me on a downward spiral! BUT I am back and determined to get back on track!

So... I am going to once again cut out coke!

30 minutes of activity a day!

2 healthy veggies at lunch and supper!

6 to 8 glasses of water per day!

That is what I am going to on for this week before I implement more! Wish me luck!

Hi ho, hi ho, off to work I go! I am working on a new me!

Jen
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It's a New Day!

I haven't posted for a few days because I really didn't have anything to say. I have been stuck in the bed since Sunday. My pain and stiffness has been getting the best of me the last few days. I have really been feeling depressed and discouraged. Then today I wake up feeling positive and upbeat about getting back on track. I figure if I can't walk I will do one of my stretching videos today. I have just got to keep on track with my eating and drinking water.

I have been taking this time in bed to get my papers organized and set up my planner for the year. Organization was another thing I was going to work on this year.

I can do this!

Jen

The AS Shuffle

The AS Shuffle is what I call how I walk when the pain and stiffness in my feet and ankles get so bad that I cant walk normal, I just shuffle around. The AS is for Ankylosing Spondylitis Arthritis. I use to just say my "arthritis" was acting up but then I would get the statement "oh yeah, I have arthritis too, in my ..." and it is too hard to explain that its not that kind of arthritis every time. AS is an autoimmune arthritis, basically my body is attacking itself. Did you know that people who have one autoimmune disease usually develop another one or even more. I have four, MS, AS, Hashimoto Hypothyroidism and Fibromyalgia. AS is actually kind of interesting but a very painful and debilitating disease to have.

I only got to be active one day this week so that is a little discouraging but I am hoping to have a better week ahead of me. I only lost 1 lb but I have been off of coke for a whole week, so I am proud of that! I hope I can get my pain under control and do better this coming week! Wish me luck!

The Blessing of Being a Mother

This evening Tripp awoke abruptly from his nap crying and calling for me. Cliff went in there thinking he was just waking up but quickly called me in there saying Tripp had a bad dream. I went in Tripp's room to find him sitting in his bed crying and very upset. I got in the bed with him and asked him to talk to me. I wanted him to tell me what was wrong and what his dream was about. I tried to comfort him and told him it was ok but it still took a little while for him to calm down. He finally managed to tell me that something had happened to me. After me laying with him awhile he was ok and laughing some. I asked him again what his dream was about and he told me that a cop had taken me away and he was going to miss me. He started tearing up and his eyes turned red, then he started crying again. In that moment nothing in the world meant more to be than just making him feel secure and loved. It broke my heart! It made me cry to see him so scared and vulnerable. I love being a mom and Tripp is my world but there are many times in a day were I ask myself what in the world did I get myself into? He can try my patience so easily. But this evening non of that mattered. It was minor compared to making him feel secure. To see how much it would hurt him to not have me there for him was devastating. I know that with my health that there will come a time when I can no longer care for him or do things with him. I also know that the longer I go not taking care of myself the quicker this will happen, to quickly! It's not about me anymore, its about him. I owe it to him to be around as long as I can. He needs me! I am getting a lump in my throat as I write this, reliving that moment in his bed and seeing the pure pain in his eyes. I have got to do all I can to take better care of my health at whatever cost there is, it is my duty as his mom. I need to take time everyday to just appreciate the blessings of motherhood. I often get caught up in the responsibilities of being a mom that I take for granted the privilege of raising Tripp. He is such a kind hearted, smart, fun loving, stubborn child. He is a  remarkable little boy. He is a light on my darkest days and I am grateful to be his mom. I vow to do all I can as his mother to be around for as long as I can to nurture and love him. I vow to take time everyday to just enjoy him and appreciate the blessings of being his mom.

Today was a Bust!

Still no Coca Cola for me and boy am I feeling it!! No energy and a horrible headache! My pain has been pretty bad today. I am hoping it is from the rainy, cool weather and not all the activity I did yesterday. This is the usual for me, I am active one day and pay for it the next several days but that is just part of having the health problems that I have. So taking some Tylenol and going to bed early!

Jen

Before the After

So I have done my weigh in and measurements and NO I am not posting it! I'm not that brave but I will post my weekly results hopefully it will be deficits every week!!! I am also posting my before pictures and as I progress will post more pictures. So excited! Feeling really motivated and hope I can keep it up!

This picture is horrible and yes my hair was messed up but aren't BEFORE pictures suppose to be bad so that it makes you look even better in the AFTER picture! :)

Dec 2012

 

 

2013! - Here we go!

Well today has been a very productive day!

Slept in and then the family spent the morning outside. Tripp jumped on his new trampoline that he just loves and hubby and me cleaned up. It felt good to be out and about. No Coca Cola for this girl!! I did have a Diet Sierra Mist Cranberry Splash (they are so good by the way). I just needed some carbonation!

After lunch I worked on my organization which is one of my goals for the new year. I am trying to set up a home binder system with all of our information in one spot along with calendars, meal planner and cleaning schedule. Of course got the idea from Pinterest and several blogs I follow.

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I jumped on the trampoline with Tripp for about 10 minutes! That is all I could do and still breathe! I will probably pay for that later on my pain scale but it was worth it and a lot of fun! I walked .96 miles and got my heart rate up s I would say a pretty good day!

Hope all of you are having a great day! Jen